pondering thoughts

Hehehe can’t get this song out of my head since… Call it ear worms or the last song syndrome heheh I really like the lyrics so much like i could relate… "goodbye" by Juana… just bittersweet! hmm i’ll most probably get me a copy of their album soon… hmmm is it just me or does she sounds (and looks well sort of) like Barbie Almalbis… oh well another useless blog from yours truly…

JUANA - GOODBYE

Didn’t mean to hurt you badly | Don’t think that I am fooling around with you |So sorry for the time you’ve wasted on me | So sorry for the things that you went through | But I know that the problem’s within me | You’re so nice but your love don’t deserve me | Or maybe I’m just so scared to fall in love again | I can still remember the days | So many times I’ve been hurt | So much trust I put on a relationship | So much suffering I got in the pains to remain | You know I like you but I don’t wanna take the risk | So confused and I don’t know how to deal with it | Need some time for a while before I give my heart away

Don’t say goodbye | Don’t say goodbye | I need some time for a while before I give my heart away | Don’t say goodbye | Don’t say goodbye | I need some time for a while before I give my heart away

Now I know I wasn’t thinking before | That’s why I’m always ending up with Mr. Wrong | Learning from the past, don’t wanna make mistake | You could be Mr. Right or could be a fake | You know I like you but I don’t wanna take the risk | So confused and I don’t know how to deal with it | Need some time for a while before I give my heart away

Don’t say goodbye | Don’t say goodbye | I need some time for a while before I give my heart away | Don’t say goodbye | Don’t say goodbye | I need some time for a while before I give my heart away

hehehe back! can’t seem to sleep… been having these insane disorder since I could remember… resting on my bed,closing my eyes yet can’t sleep just waiting for the sandman to come dust me off to pajama haven… should I count them stupid jumping sheep? hehehe nope that don’t work on me… so rather risk reminisce on things past and how it affected and still haunts me, I got up and out of habit took some ice coffee to accompany me in typing yet another blog… but here it comes utter silence as it echoes on four corners of my little room… I’m trying so hard not to lose it and type in some dense feelings of despair and longing, of love lost and found, of how clueless I am, of how things should have been and would be, or of how lonesome and mind-numbing enduring and sucking in all bad things… hahah I don’t even know what to write about next… so lost in moment… hmmm better go outside then… rooftop… breathe some air and lay on back… maybe count the stars again?! Why am I narrating my actions?! Why do I even bother? No one is listen… ahh! curse you fate!!!!

heehe if i hadn’t know better, I swear I might be drunk after all :S bit tipsy huh

Wee the start of Octoberfest! but not me, got lots of things to do…

Just a few hours ago me and my little sis went out to watch the brothers Grimm heehehe yep you got that right… putting sibling rivalries aside and having some R&R with my little sis. Awww ain’t that sweet… (yuck heheh) and much to my surprise it’s just what I needed after being locked up with work for weeks now without taking time for myself heheheh kinda selfish huh anyway the movie is enjoyable but not that good… the premise of the movie is about the Grimm Brothers (duhh) take on how and where they supposedly got these bunch of beloved and famed fairy tales the world over have come to know and treasured… Well the truth certainly is stranger that fiction, (that I leave for you to find out) as the different fairy tales collide into yet another tale… a bit of a story layering… don’t want to be giving much spoilers and what not… might I say I was very assumed with the ginger bread man or is it a girl… and being the senti that I am, it hit me esp. on the last part wherein only a true love’s kiss can break the spell, what is one’s true feelings when in doubt you’re not her/his true love… hehehehehe opps that may have been a sneer at some folks who have yet to see the flick, heck

And another thing as I were typing these outright none sense, I can hear the creaking noise coming from my cpu as if it’s falling apart… (you should see it in person hehehe it’s all flesh and bones or is it, all metal frames and essential parts) scary huh well Anne (how geeky can you get I even named her… oh now she’s a she?!) put on some great service for about 5 years now and counting… yep if this damn computer can talk, it would be demanding a wage increase or worse report me to the union of the times I mishandled it hehehehe yep it’s official I need a new computer and a life hehehe Now that I feel all nerdy and maybe tickled your fancy, I decide to retire for the evening and bid you goodnight