pondering thoughts

A Habit Of Mine

    Whenever I go out of the house for some R&R or maybe to do some errands, I secretly hope for something good and exciting to happen. I got this rather peculiar habit of letting my imagination loose… At times it fancies me as it makes long commutes and endless walks entertaining and worthwhile. Even a friend of mine thinks I’m mad and have a morbid mind as she asked me what I was thinking after pausing and staring down from the 3rd floor of a building. Interrupted from my daze, I replied, "nothing, I was just thinking of jumping and vaulting up in the air as I shimmy my way down by grabbing the poles sticking below". Hehehe looks like someone’s been playing video games for quite so long. But I don’t blame her for perceiving me that way, I mean yes I do admit I’m a bit loony at times but I guess that’s just how I am - there’s no changing that. I’m also a keen observer of things, hehehe some might label it as "himantayon" or someone who constantly take notice of things around himself but can I be blamed for having eyes that stares and catches people doing some silly mannerisms? Though yes they say it’s impolite to stare at people but lately it has been a good pastime of mine hehe as sick as it maybe, I do have fun just doing that - remember Jack ‘n Jill’s Piatos ad? hehehe something like that. Some fun impulse huh? I guess so or maybe it has some deeper reasons why certain people do this sort of stuff, guess I should visit my psychology teacher for a chat… I bet he’d asked me how am I and make accurate assumptions like I’m a bit anti-social hehehe does it really shows? Yes I hardly go out only except if I feel like it or forced to do so, always at my room tinkering with my pc even my skin is paler than before and it always catches my friends’ attention like one of those silly Likas Papaya lines "pumuputi ka ata ha" hehehehe but no seriously I don’t use that soap or any whitening stuff for any matter.

    You see often in my solitude, love-less and boring life, it’s funny that I find myself observing other people as they go through their busy lives as if my I have few things to worry about myself already. But as my eyes wander about to a sea of strangers, there’s always a face that stands out from the crowd. What’s even weird is suddenly I begin to wonder who this person is, personality, moods, what that one does for a living - all those kinds of things. And if it were possible, if we knew each other and be friends with or even get really involved, would our lives be any happier?

    Ridiculous thoughts indeed, like just this day, I rode a jeepney to go to a mall here, then suddenly I saw, our eyes met and naturally I looked away but always never failed to steal glances hoping not to be caught - like the sms someone forwarded me saying that my only consolation whenever a person caught me looking, is that I must keep in mind that I was not the only one looking but that person too. Anyway, as I handed my fare to the driver and dropped at my destination, in my mind I did hope for fate to intervene and possibly another encounter. There were not so many people inside the mall but I hurried just the same to watch 300 which I was anticipating for months. I brought a ticket, ‘take-out’ some finger lick’in chicken fillets, fries and soda then headed inside the dark theater. The movie was a blast! Bloody, dark and morbid - I haven’t got a chance to take hold of any Frank Miller graphic novels but I’m sure this adaptation delivered, I mean it really is a great movie. As the ending credits rolled, I waited awhile for a number of people to disperse and then exited. The mall was silent apart from moviegoers eager to go home, most of the lights were turned off as a few service crew tidy up for the night. I took my time heading out, fidgeting with my zen scrolling my playlist looking for a fitting commute song then suddenly while going down an escalator I caught a glimpse of a familiar face once again with our eyes intertwined. For a moment I couldn’t remember who but it was soon clear that it was the same person I shared a jeepney ride earlier and what’s this? with someone else?! argghhh. They were the first to rode a taxi as I walked beside it, I saw that person staring at me as if saying ‘I know you’ or maybe ‘who are you?’ Their taxi drove off as I settled for the next one on queue. In my mind I wished I was with that person and getting to know each other. As I gave my directions to the driver and rushed through the empty streets, I swear I was hoping to catch up to their taxi cab but nope - all green lights here considering that it’s already late.

    Tonight was really a good night, my eyes and mind were satisfied and consumed by a great movie and yes, tonight fate intervened for another encounter with a total stranger who I wished to know more - ’till the next time we meet.

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